Wednesday, December 27, 2017


Dancing through the rain
I reached one world to other
Where the once fertile a land
Was made not to fruit
Atlast i realise
Barren became the sand
And the rude invader
Scavenged through the roots
Sun sent gamma rays
And earth sent platinum
Salveging the body
Trying to save the life
How soon a flower
Was made into a stone
Weaning the body and
Slowly killing the womb

a ray of hope

I sat watching the sun rise
The birds that were chirping
On the Banyan tree
The array of pegions
Spread over the tiled roof
All ignored me
And basked in the sun light
A cuckoo flew on my roof
And said "you may seem pale today..
But soon will the sky shine
And the flowers bloom
And i will come back to you
With a beautiful song.."
Giving me a ray of hope
The bird flew away
I smiled at the sky
With her beautiful song
The cuckoo would return one day

You never know! Never take life for granted..

The tree i was

The tree i was
Bearing fruits and flowers
My leaves and the barks
Always danced with the wind
A storm one day
Hit me hard
Left me uprooted and devastated
That i was about to fall
Then came the saviors of God
Thousand hands joined together
Saved me from falling
Put me back into the earth
Thousand hands joined together
In prayers to heal me
And finally here i am
I stand again..
To see the sun and the moon
To dance with the wind
I may not bear fruits and flowers
But to the kinfolk
I can give my shade and shelter
The tree i am
For those thousand hands
That joined together
I am and i will be obliged forever

Before i disappear

Before i disappear
Will you give me another day
To see my little one play
To see her come back from school
To hear her say 'amma i am hungry'
To make her the most delicious supper
Will you give me another day
To see her sing and dance
To see her beautiful smiles
To see her master her skills
To see her win her battles
Will you give me another day
As i promised her a 'yes'
When she asked me
'Amma will you be with me forever?'
Even though I knew
I would not be able to keep
Will you give me another day
As today she has
her existence in me
I know a day would come
And she would be ready to fly
But untill then, she need me
Today I smile
To see the undivided love
When she runs into me
Looking up into my eyes
And say 'Amma i love you the most'
O' God.. will you?
Before i disappear into the clouds
Will you give me another day?

My hero..
He held my hand and walked with me
When I kept those first lil trembling steps
His grip, firm yet warm
Reassured me that he is always there beside
He picked me up and held me high
And showed me the world around
When the school bell rang, and I looked for him
He would appear to take me back home
From peddling a cycle to racing a bike
However high I fly I would run to him at the end of the day
To show him all that i had achieved
And to see that brilliant smile
That told me how proud he was
I was and i will always be my papa's girlie
Now when I am 38, he is old yet strong
For even today he held my hand
His grip, firm yet warm
When i walked through the cancer ward
Being my strength and being my shelter
He walked with me all the way
He is and he will be my biggest hero

Walked through ember
Crossed the earth
Stepped on the door
To the City of God
We shook hands
He said there is time
So i walked back

you came and you left..

you came and you left..
I was alone.. my sky was blue
you came.. colored my world
there came trees, flowers, fruits
there came birds.. chirping and songs
wind blew and carried fragrance..
I was breathing love all over
I wanted a flower.. you gave me a garden
you gave me wings and made me fly
I close my eyes....and there it rained..
and roared over my little blue sky..
the thunder and the storm
washed away my world..
the trees, the flowers, the birds
and the wings.. had vanished!
deep i fell over the ruins
which once was a garden
I opened my eyes
and i stand again!!
but i can take the walk alone
I will never quit
you came and you left..
and made me strong enough
to be myself and stand alone!

Sunday, February 19, 2017

I love you God..

Had been driving on roads that got familiar with each trip.. and God always took me to unknown roads.. for me to learn.. and get familiar.. and drive off safe.. everytime i thought i lost my way, God had His own indicators showing me the directions of destiny.. He filled my pocket everytime i stopped for fuel..  I see angels on my way... i know He sent them to cheer me while i am tired.. i know..
He want me to be the best driver and want me to experience the best journey..

God.. why am i so special for you?



I ran behind the vehicle
Ammu had forgot her pouch
I yelled at the bus driver as i ran
He did not stop..
And watched the bus moving far
I returned home and searched for devu
She was not seen anywhere..
I ran through the neighbouring streets
Peeped in all open doors calling out for her
Then i saw my father walking across..
And devu holding his fingers..
I was relieved.. i called her.. she did not notice
I followed them.. calling her name..
She did not turn to me..
I was wondering.. may be she is angry..
But then i realised.. no one looked at me..
No one answered me when i searched my kid
As if no one could hear me.. as if no one could see me
I entered my house.. right behind devu
She ran and sat beside someone who was lying down..
I saw devu hugging and kissing the pale face..
I went near and had a close look..
It was me.. immobile.. without words..

I could talk but no one can hear me..
I could see all but no one saw me..
I could run but my body lay immobile..

Oh God, can i get my life back..?
If not, can you take me back..?

You made me special..

You made me special..

You taught me how to smile
Even when the pain was deep
You taught me how to be strong
When you walked with your trembling feet
You taught me how to forgive
By giving up everything for your lil sister
You taught me what it means to be big
Everytime you shared even the last cookie in your box
You taught me patience
When you watched your sister sit in my lap and you waited endlessly for your turn
You are not special.. but a precious gift
And blessed i am! As you made me special..